32,000 Feet (In The Air)

Thirty-two. I’ll get it started with a word or two. I really love you if this is something you’ve observed me do. Until you start you never know what it can turn into. Another morning that Shane dropped me off at Terminal 2. 

It feels like everything is up in the air. When I try to see past tomorrow it’s like nothing is clear. But today is a blessing, I try not to belabor my lessons. I’m living in an answered prayer cause I once prayed to be present.

It’s all perspective, I try to keep control of mine. Flying as I wrote this line. Head up in the clouds, every time I win it blows my mind.
I remember I saw myself as a loser but that was so long ago I’m reporting live from the future. 
Getting lost in tenses. 
I hope you 
caught this sentence. 
The way I kill a punchline could make them 
call forensics. 
Bodying the verse, my thoughts, I leave them 
all dismembered. 
Cause it’s just not me to pretend to have it 
all together. 
Time has taught me to be careful what you 
call forever. 

I lost friends, I lost love. I lost ends, I thought of. Yet that just means I’m on the cusp of new beginnings. 3 weeks since the Knicks chip, I’m getting comfortable with winning. I’ve clearly been sitting on that line for more than a month. I’m grateful just to be, because there’s more to become. If you remain consistent you’ll come to it faster. First you pray and believe, then prosper abundantly after. My Karl Towns year so this gon’ be one for the rafters. 

I’ve been on autopilot so much that it’s tough to explain it. My apologies, been numb to my notifications. Sometimes it feels like I’ve been blinded by the goals that I’m chasing. I barely know what it’s going on but I know it’s amazing. Not fully drowning in thought but I’m caught in a whirlpool. Almost everything comes at a cost and the world’s cruel. But it’s beautiful. Trapped in the current but I can choose the flow. I maintain the power to take my mind where I choose to go. I view my life as a show, another season is getting launched. My grandma asking me about a girl who’s been written off. Some people I should call because it’s been a while. I’m gonna always be Shauny because I’m still the child, inside. No matter how much changes, nothing does. So it is what it is and also it was what it was. Trust God and shoot for the stars, that’s the plan. While staying grounded, I’m wrapping this up, we’re about to land.